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My drains are evil. This time it's my toilet. I tried plunging it- no help. I tried waiting and flushing again, and plunging more. No help. Just decaying toilet paper. Called landlady to get a plumber. Am thinking I ought to maybe acquire horrid toxic unclogging chemicals and try that. How does one use horrid toxic unclogging chemicals?
But in any case, I was talking to Steve about my future a bit, and the fact that I'm thinking of applying to JTS's mechina program (aka what they push as the "I'm not sure if I want to be a rabbi or not, but I want to check it out" program). Her response was "Isn't that a big step towards the rabbinate?" And well, it could be. And I guess I could do a lot of what I want to as a rabbi. Just not the scholarly side of things. And it would be so much darn Easier to figure out applying for. But- I really like the academia thing. Although I'm utterly unsure of my potential as a lecturer. It's just so frightening to figure out the selection and application process for PhD stuff. That really frightens me. I really, really am intimidated by that aspect of things- not the actual work involved. The rabbi track just seems so much more established. Why can't I want to do something that's laid out like that? Eeep.
But in any case, I was talking to Steve about my future a bit, and the fact that I'm thinking of applying to JTS's mechina program (aka what they push as the "I'm not sure if I want to be a rabbi or not, but I want to check it out" program). Her response was "Isn't that a big step towards the rabbinate?" And well, it could be. And I guess I could do a lot of what I want to as a rabbi. Just not the scholarly side of things. And it would be so much darn Easier to figure out applying for. But- I really like the academia thing. Although I'm utterly unsure of my potential as a lecturer. It's just so frightening to figure out the selection and application process for PhD stuff. That really frightens me. I really, really am intimidated by that aspect of things- not the actual work involved. The rabbi track just seems so much more established. Why can't I want to do something that's laid out like that? Eeep.