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The sound on my computer has just completely stopped working, and I think it might think that its ability to produce sound doesn't actually exist- but I may be wrong about that. I think I foresee some really annoying time on the phone with tech support sometime next week- After my Talmud final on Tuesday morning... In the meantime, tapes it shall have to be, for music. The computer is brand new- why the heck is it doing something stupid like this?
The sound on my computer has just completely stopped working, and I think it might think that its ability to produce sound doesn't actually exist- but I may be wrong about that. I think I foresee some really annoying time on the phone with tech support sometime next week- After my Talmud final on Tuesday morning... In the meantime, tapes it shall have to be, for music. The computer is brand new- why the heck is it doing something stupid like this?
I've been very cognizant of the idea that in regards to halakha, one should be machmir (strict) for yourself and meikil (lenient) for others, lately. I've been noticing in my own behavior a tendency to be a little bit stricter than usual- or rather, to want to follow some stricter opinions l'humra (as optional stringencies, not that I've decided that they're the really most Correct interpretations necessarily), to justify or balance out some of my more liberal opinions. It's an approach much favored by a certain circle of my friends (the term circle is used here very loosely), and one that I have sometimes favored and sometimes found really objectionable because it requires a dedication that can sometimes put one in an odd position vis-a-vis other folks. (It can seem like the behavioral equivalent of another approach I often adopt about grades and such: "Hey, you got a B+, good job! What did I get? An A-, I really should have worked harder." more or less.)
In any case, somehow I seem to feel a need to feel and come across as really caring about halakha, in the context of yesterday's decision. And really caring seems to involve coming across to myself and others as a little bit more frum in my personal choices than I might usually care about, and it is making me think about some areas of halakha that I usually try not to think about, or where I'm usually pretty satisfied with my more lenient answers. In several of these cases, it isn't that I want to change my position, so much as have stronger textual support for it, and in another- well, I really need to do that research finally. But somehow a few days of being a little machmir is making me feel more solid in my positions. Go figure.
In any case, somehow I seem to feel a need to feel and come across as really caring about halakha, in the context of yesterday's decision. And really caring seems to involve coming across to myself and others as a little bit more frum in my personal choices than I might usually care about, and it is making me think about some areas of halakha that I usually try not to think about, or where I'm usually pretty satisfied with my more lenient answers. In several of these cases, it isn't that I want to change my position, so much as have stronger textual support for it, and in another- well, I really need to do that research finally. But somehow a few days of being a little machmir is making me feel more solid in my positions. Go figure.
I've been very cognizant of the idea that in regards to halakha, one should be machmir (strict) for yourself and meikil (lenient) for others, lately. I've been noticing in my own behavior a tendency to be a little bit stricter than usual- or rather, to want to follow some stricter opinions l'humra (as optional stringencies, not that I've decided that they're the really most Correct interpretations necessarily), to justify or balance out some of my more liberal opinions. It's an approach much favored by a certain circle of my friends (the term circle is used here very loosely), and one that I have sometimes favored and sometimes found really objectionable because it requires a dedication that can sometimes put one in an odd position vis-a-vis other folks. (It can seem like the behavioral equivalent of another approach I often adopt about grades and such: "Hey, you got a B+, good job! What did I get? An A-, I really should have worked harder." more or less.)
In any case, somehow I seem to feel a need to feel and come across as really caring about halakha, in the context of yesterday's decision. And really caring seems to involve coming across to myself and others as a little bit more frum in my personal choices than I might usually care about, and it is making me think about some areas of halakha that I usually try not to think about, or where I'm usually pretty satisfied with my more lenient answers. In several of these cases, it isn't that I want to change my position, so much as have stronger textual support for it, and in another- well, I really need to do that research finally. But somehow a few days of being a little machmir is making me feel more solid in my positions. Go figure.
In any case, somehow I seem to feel a need to feel and come across as really caring about halakha, in the context of yesterday's decision. And really caring seems to involve coming across to myself and others as a little bit more frum in my personal choices than I might usually care about, and it is making me think about some areas of halakha that I usually try not to think about, or where I'm usually pretty satisfied with my more lenient answers. In several of these cases, it isn't that I want to change my position, so much as have stronger textual support for it, and in another- well, I really need to do that research finally. But somehow a few days of being a little machmir is making me feel more solid in my positions. Go figure.
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