debka_notion | Gee, I get worked up easily

SO Nathan left me a message to call him this afternoon. I called, he said he'd failed his midterm, it seems through mostly careless errors that affected a lot. So he was asking me for help- I told him I couldn't do much for him, and telling him to go to office hours and tutoring was his mother's job, not mine. I got kind of fed up with him, which really is Not what he needed. But I desperately don't wnat to get into that sort of a roll with him: it could only lead to bad things. But I shouldn't have been snippish, which I was. SOmehow it just hit all the wrong buttons. Usually I'm a good listener, sympathetic- so what was different? I guess also that thought I had even less time than I do, etc. And since it's the afternoon- it cost me to call, just like it would cost him to call: he could have called me. That frustrates me: that he still just asked me to call. But really- I need to calm down, and not think about it. It just scares me when he gets childish like that- it makes me afraid that Mom's right, that he's really kind of immature for his age. Just an intensification of doubt thing. Once again, I'm not so good at letting go of something once it hits me. I just need to relax.
So I'm off to sweep at least part of my floor, which despeately needs it