So as long as it's just (just?) hell week blues, I won't worry too much. But I'm very much a Jewish Mother In Training- I Have to worry.
Why is people thinking that I wouldn't care be shameful? (I think that's what you're asking) I guess the short version is that they think it's shameful, and I don't want them to think badly of me. And some of it's ambivalence on my part, I guess. And just not knowing exactly what I think.
We should talk for real after the play is over, and we can both breathe again. THese are things I'd like to talk about with someone who's got a clue about it all, and from an angle outside my usual influences around here.