criticism

[debka_notion]

I've been thinking, once again, about my unfortunate tendency to get all upset and defensive over really minor critiques of me. As an example, this morning at minyan I got the usual weekday variety of honor ("Maya- wrap."). So far, so good. Aparently I messed up, and hit PW in the head- he'd lifted. (Explanation of these arcane Judaic-terms: he picked up the torah after it was read from, and I was supposed to put the assorted bindings and coverings back on it.) So after the reading, he came over to me and told me that I shouldn't hold on to the torah while dressing it- I hit him in the head. True, he gave me no description of what I should do instead, but still- a perfectly legitimate correction. It would hardly do to leave me hitting people in the head all the time. But I got all emotionally hurt, and offended, which I trust I hid. (I can fake that much, at least.) But it oughtn't to have bothered me- he wasn't being mean, he was genuinely trying to help. So why did I get so offended by a correction offered in good will? Quite frankly, I still don't really know. Maybe it's just part of my oversensitiveness. But whatever it was, I kept metaphorically hitting myself in the head over it for a while, until I internally yanked my attention back to praying. I wonder if other people have the same reaction, and just also hide it, or if it's just me?

In any case, dancing tonight, and the start of class registration (there are too many classes I want to take, still). BD from minyan is coming with us to dancing tonight: apparently her parents met at dancing at MIT. That makes the third couple I know who met at that session in that time period. Weird. KI is seeming like it could start being like that- the college and grad school age population is growing at least. And amusingly, of the Brandeis folks who go to IFD, if BD keeps going, will be 3 out of 5 Egal folks. Talk about odd coincidences.

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[qianian.livejournal.com]

I've been won over by vitamin B6. When I was in the pits because I was horribly behind in work and having to play concerts and sick, B6 worked a miracle and kept me smiling most of the time. Maybe you should try it for moodiness, that's actually what my nurse Linda usually recommends it for.

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