Confusion and Ambivalence

[debka_notion]

I woke up this morning to the sound of Liz coming in. I figured she was just getting back for the week, so I tried to pretend she hadn't woken me- I feel horrid acting like someone woke me up unintentionally- I don't like making people guilty. But then she came over and tapped me on teh shoulder and said she was moving out- she's going to be living at home and with her aunt in Newton. So she and her father came in and started moving stuff (they're still finishing). I asked her dad to leave while I got dressed at least- but it's far from the Sunday morning I was expecting. I don't know if I'm happy or upset- she was really annoying me and I was sort of perpetually worried about her, but- the idea of having my own room is just strange. Her side looks so bare. Maybe I'll put sheets and my spare rug on her bed, or something. The other question is whether I want to try to find another roommmate. I'm no longer as scared of living alone as I was earlier this year- having her being away for weekends sort of got me more used to the idea. But- I guess I had little enough actual warning, even with all the knowledge that she was thinking about it, that I'm still kind of baffled.

Comments

[qianian.livejournal.com]

whoa. that's weird. But now you have a single. you can have slumber parties.

Not so surprised

[yemeknight.livejournal.com]

I saw something of the sort coming. Some friends just don't make good roommates. Personality conflict... Too much of someone is not necessarily good. (especially, though I hate to say it, when one is somewhat schitzophrenic. (How do you spell that?))
In contrast, take a look at your roommate last year. You seemed to make fine roommates, even though you were not friends. Interesting how that works...

My advice to you is enjoy having your own room, and make it the life of the dorm! Invite people to party and play loud music there at all hours of the day and night! Now that your fussy, proper and altogether stifling roommate is gone, PARTY!!!!

I'm kidding of course.
Remember how your parents said everyone should try living alone for a while? Well, I don't really agree with them. Humans are social animals, and one can have a roommate for an apartment too. There is no reason that one should court loneliness to 'discover one's self'. One's self exists only by not being someone else. My advice is find a roommate if you can. Just because you're not scared (& you shouldn't be) of living alone doesn't make it better to live alone.

Re: Not so surprised

[debka-notion.livejournal.com]

My parents (actually, this was my mom) meant that one should live without a life partner and not in a dorm at some point- roommates, apartment mates, etc are not impermissible to qualify for that standard, but living in a dorm doesn't count. I do have friends just down the hall. The self exists regardless of whether or not there's anyone around.

[(Anonymous)]

Wow. it seems as if this is for the best for the both of you. whatever you decide you can always ask me to come visit and keep you company. Let me know if you need to talk tonight.
-miriam