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debka_notion) wrote2004-01-20 01:36 am
debka_notion) wrote2004-01-20 01:36 am
Bopping Around
Declaration: this thing and I are not getting along: hence no links to appropriate journals, in hopes that this posts the right way. Revisions will coem later.
Today's activity was somewhat more limitted than I'd planned in terms of accomplishments: somehow for all my time this weekend, the stuff for HaMakor still isn't finished. Hopefully soon. But probably not tomorrow night- it's promised to Jess Instead, I spent a bunch of time being the messenger for Zach, or rather, for his news. IT was a real thrill to get to watch people's faces light up and be so happy. Few things can make my day better than seeing so many happy people. I know, it sounds sappy, but, it's pretty true.
In any case, it motivated me to get to minyan for all 3 services today, not something that happens often yet. Hopefully someday...
More opperationally, I learned a heck of a lot of Arabic vocab (whether or not I'll remember it is another story), and went grocery shopping. And then a phase of a lot of unhappy people, but that didn't last too long. But it was pretty intense. Not so easy, and at some level I botched things a bit with Liz. She's really not happy here, it seems. So: we'll see what happens. But it's likely to be a rough semester for her, and hence- for me to some extent. Not that I'll necessarily be in the room that much with all the stuff I have in the planning stages already.
I think that maintaining some level of playfullness in dealing with steve is what I need, regardless of how serious things are. That and bluntness. Not my usual strongest combination- but I've done it before, and it can be kind of fun. It's like letting go and thinking differently some. But- it definitely feels different: it's a pattern I have to build up and work myself i
Today's activity was somewhat more limitted than I'd planned in terms of accomplishments: somehow for all my time this weekend, the stuff for HaMakor still isn't finished. Hopefully soon. But probably not tomorrow night- it's promised to Jess Instead, I spent a bunch of time being the messenger for Zach, or rather, for his news. IT was a real thrill to get to watch people's faces light up and be so happy. Few things can make my day better than seeing so many happy people. I know, it sounds sappy, but, it's pretty true.
In any case, it motivated me to get to minyan for all 3 services today, not something that happens often yet. Hopefully someday...
More opperationally, I learned a heck of a lot of Arabic vocab (whether or not I'll remember it is another story), and went grocery shopping. And then a phase of a lot of unhappy people, but that didn't last too long. But it was pretty intense. Not so easy, and at some level I botched things a bit with Liz. She's really not happy here, it seems. So: we'll see what happens. But it's likely to be a rough semester for her, and hence- for me to some extent. Not that I'll necessarily be in the room that much with all the stuff I have in the planning stages already.
I think that maintaining some level of playfullness in dealing with steve is what I need, regardless of how serious things are. That and bluntness. Not my usual strongest combination- but I've done it before, and it can be kind of fun. It's like letting go and thinking differently some. But- it definitely feels different: it's a pattern I have to build up and work myself i
Glad to bring Joy to you
Nathan
(Anonymous) 2004-01-20 07:44 am (UTC)(link)It has happened to me that something that I always said "no, that's not like me at all" about, once I tried it for a while and got into it, I'd think "yeah, that's totally me". The most dramatic example is dancing, but there are several others dating back many more years. Including the way I make friends. I'm not saying that you are actually a blunt and playful person, despite what you think, though I've seen you be both. Playfully random with your friends and blunt in some of your e-mails more often. Especially after we broke up, eh? ;-)
Re: Nathan