"If birds fly over the rainbow..."

[debka_notion]

I feel like such a jerk sometimes. Things are shaping up in all sorts of wonderful ways for bunches of my friends, and although I'm really happy for them, it then leaves me feeling lousy and lonely. This is ridiculous, and horrible.

And I'm too funky to even write anything good and artistically worthwhile about it. If I have to be mopey, why can't something productive and creative come out of it?

Someday I'll manage to grow up. But this seems to be my major area of weakness. And certain people are going to see this and get over-cuddly and it will, I predict, be all the wrong people. Because my life just seems to work like that. I don't want pity, and I don't want to be an excuse for people to feel like they're being good and sweet and wonderful for taking care of me.

Sorry folks- I needed to vent

Comments

no pity unless you want it

[shorr.livejournal.com]

No pity here, unless you really want it, just a quick "I know what it's like and it 'aint pretty". Vent when you need to. You know where to find my number.
-AzS

[jessebeller.livejournal.com]

it sucks when everybody else is doing well, but things are still going shitty for you. commiseration is clutch.

you know you have both my sympathy and my empathy. ive been through a hard time or two and im willing to listen if you want to talk, talk if you want to listen, or, well...you know the drill.