Time Management

Today seems awfully long, in a very nice way. I got most of my mending done, and the last thing is hemming a shirt, which I'm not sure is going to be worthwhile- it does look rather obvious when I look at it thus far- the shirt is a cheap, ribbed tank-top, so... I had an interesting, sort of floating lunch, had a few folks back to my room to look at pictures and a very silly hat my mother got me that I haven't had the guts to wear yet (it's sort of square, has pompoms at the corners, and Daniel pointed out that if I added strings, I could use it as a bag). At one point I got kind of overwhelmed by the whole group concept, and got kind of upset and lonely, but folks were good to me, and I got myself back in proportion afterwards. From there, things looked up- I had a nice dinner, got to spend time with Brenna (makes me feel better after some issues we had around the end of last semester), and then got to the end of Beth's birthday party, and hung out with just Vera and Shlomiya afterwards.

I realized again that I do much better socially (outside of active things like dancing, and whatnot like that) in smaller groups of people. In large groups, it's just too hard to relate for long periods of time: it seems to lack meaning, and it gets me frustrated. Any meaningful interaction seems to need a smaller subdivision of people. I'm realizing that large specific groups, for all that they make me feel sort of left out at times, really aren't my thing. Ok, re-realizing. It's easier to focus, and to feel comfortable with just a few people. It gives me somewhere to start. I'm not sure if that's just an ok way to be, or just a stage on my way to being comfortable with larger groups, but I don't know if that matters.

Time Management

Today seems awfully long, in a very nice way. I got most of my mending done, and the last thing is hemming a shirt, which I'm not sure is going to be worthwhile- it does look rather obvious when I look at it thus far- the shirt is a cheap, ribbed tank-top, so... I had an interesting, sort of floating lunch, had a few folks back to my room to look at pictures and a very silly hat my mother got me that I haven't had the guts to wear yet (it's sort of square, has pompoms at the corners, and Daniel pointed out that if I added strings, I could use it as a bag). At one point I got kind of overwhelmed by the whole group concept, and got kind of upset and lonely, but folks were good to me, and I got myself back in proportion afterwards. From there, things looked up- I had a nice dinner, got to spend time with Brenna (makes me feel better after some issues we had around the end of last semester), and then got to the end of Beth's birthday party, and hung out with just Vera and Shlomiya afterwards.

I realized again that I do much better socially (outside of active things like dancing, and whatnot like that) in smaller groups of people. In large groups, it's just too hard to relate for long periods of time: it seems to lack meaning, and it gets me frustrated. Any meaningful interaction seems to need a smaller subdivision of people. I'm realizing that large specific groups, for all that they make me feel sort of left out at times, really aren't my thing. Ok, re-realizing. It's easier to focus, and to feel comfortable with just a few people. It gives me somewhere to start. I'm not sure if that's just an ok way to be, or just a stage on my way to being comfortable with larger groups, but I don't know if that matters.